GARIS HALUS

Selasa 18hb. Mei 2015   11.02am
bismillah.

Masih jadi topik kami bila takde orang lain around / with us . Abah & me. Just the two of us . ...this subject matter memang agak sensitif esp when we are made up of 8 beautiful people with brains , mouth and to top it all a super-great love for Abah ( the half yang masih with us) .
Abah initiated our breakfast chat with : "  Lepas abah gi toilet (urinate)  4 or 5 times last night okay dah rasa perut yang sebu semalam " ....seolah2 beliau dah familiar and knows how to handle it . Me probing : " So kalau abah tinggal sorang kat rumah abah buat macamana when that happens ? "   ermm ......okay baru sedar my daddy dah start all over again on his trio meds ; for hypertension , heart ( presumably aspirin ) & fureosemide .  I guess memang a bit tricky situation bila one has to make a choice between a worrying sesak nafas ( which is much reduced by taking the furosemide katanya) OR the damaging side-effects of the furesomide ( and the rest of the drugs for that matter ) on the kidneys , liver and eventually everything else in our system . The idea is not simply to live long , rather to live well . My father explained : " sesak nafas in his case takes place when the water in his body tak dapat keluar lalu bertakung kat dalam...tu yang kaki akan bengkak ( oedema) . Hence dia perlu :

• kurangkan minum air sebab this will add on to whatever yg dah bertakung tadi , and makes it more bengkak 
• take furosemide ( pelawas kencing) supaya takungan akan jadi kurang bila dah di keluarkan.

In my mind as a layman kedua2 diatas tak masuk akal jika seseorang bermatlamat nak recover his good health . Unless and otherwise he memang kata yang penting he nak immediate relief no matter what . Frankly I boleh appreciate jugak this point sebab I do make that choice when I sakit gigi . I would pop-in more paracetamol than I should . At the end of the day it is up to the tuan badan . We can try bentangkan what facts & informations available . He might believe . He might not . Then he would make a choice . Kadang2 pun he makes a choice that contradicts what he believes sebab the discomfort is too much to bear . 

I read to him the list of do's and don'ts plus the possible side effects of the drug  . He concluded that some of the side-effects are already happening and it is dangerous to go on . 

I was on my late mom's side during her last few breaths ....and I hate to imagine the same thing to happen to anyone else especially my father . Nak shahadah in peace was impossible ....ada doctor , her team , noisy machines to  monitor her blood-pressure & heart beat , a urine bag stuck to her , tubes stuck into her neck ......pure commotion . This I managed to remind my dad nicely. and rationally . 

In conclusion he agrees to stop all medications , of course with the condition that i ensure a steady flow of alternative supplies . -  yungkien twinpack ,Ceo- coffee  to start with......May Allah ease his journey . Aammeen.